A Quickie

While it my sounds like a great idea to indulge with another individual for just a few seconds to experience a great euphoria; this was not such a case. I knew him for a couple of years, he's seen me between various changes in my recent life. Him and I had a wonderful connection, in privacy. I returned to DC last year and we connected again and to find him leave me high and dry. Fast forward to this year and HE reaches out to me. And we (well I) fall head over heels for him, this time it tseemed different, it seemed like we both grew up. 

We began dating and indulging in each other's lives. We decided as a couple to move back to SD together. I was in it to win it. Fast forward to our NYC trip, things just begun to get awkward. Essentially I send out an email from my perspective for us to reflect on. He stops talking to me...so I begin to feel abandoned like the year prior, however I refuse to let this go. I do the Boyfriend thing and try and reach out to him and his friends. Finally I get a message "things aren't going to work out." 

I was heart broken (am). I haven't had a great chemistry with some one for a very long time. While it was a quickie, it taught me that I am capable of falling for another person after the chapter in my life titled "X". While usually I would be upset, I am not. I am grateful to have cared for someone else so deeply, I can truly say I am over my past. So let's close this chapter titled "KK." For you I wish that you can accept who you are and what you are capable of. While I am down another chapter of this never ending story, I can move on to another amazing story, and hopefully another great love. This "quickie," was drawn out but very much needed for me to realize I am capable of love.